God's Speed

I frequently sign the end of a message God's Peace and I recently received a message signed with God's Speed and realized that if you bask in his glory that he will give you peace as you pace through the process. It is becoming abundantly clear that with God nothing is a race and it is only due to our own impatience that we end up torturing ourselves for a longer period than was ever intended. I no longer believe in coincidences, I believe in my God. I accept that God will place people in your life that have his love for you, making the bond stronger than many blood families. People willing to share with absolutely no bias, a testimony at the end to help you understand that in God's time at his speed you too shall make it through! I just know that all this time I have tried to control my race, when God has already ordered my steps and I can't outrun his pace which is why I end up going in circles because I have yet to accept his speed is the only way to move in a straight line.

Love doesn't suck

I had a conversation tonight about how one person believes "Love Sucks" and was not willing to accept that Love itself did not do the "sucking" instead the negative outcome of the situation sucked. Funny how I listen to people like myself that admit to seeing it for what it really is, but ignored the signs in hopes of love fixing all. Love is powerful and we are encouraged to walk in a Jesus like love, but even Jesus loves us just as we are. Total acceptance of us right now in whatever our current circumstance; be it drug addiction, sex addiction, liars, poor parenting skills or just plain ole' greedy and selfish we are instructed to come as we are. If we waited for someone to love us once we had it all fixed this would be a heartless world. His belief that love now sucks is believing all the lies he was told by his bad situation. Instead of viewing it with God's eyes that even the person telling the lies needed his love the most. I guess my hope is that we all learn that it may suck to be hurt by someone you love, but we must not let them escape with our love. We will need it to share with the next person!

Hugs

Hugs provide warmth and strength and for me there is nothing more soothing than a sincere embrace. I had a business meeting this morning that turned into spiritual bonding. I love when a person listens to God and boldly ask "are you saved" and with my YES we move from strictly business to lets talk God's business. I love how God will send me hugs from his earthly disciples. Thank you Lord for surrounding all areas of my life with people who are in love with you and truly remind me that all I need is to put my trust in you because even in business you have my back.

LIVE

What I learned tonight is that people who SURVIVE something are that much more willing to LIVE their LIFE. They smell the roses and taste the flavor of the food, they do the silly dance and wear the funny hat. They LIVE!! I cannot describe the beauty of tonight, hundreds of bags glowing in the silence of the night with only the bag pipes playing. People proudly walking for the love one they lost or the co-worker who survived maybe the neighbor who is battling now. I felt the shift yesterday when I decided it was more important to discuss what a great day it was in the "A" than my troubles, to my "lol" attitude towards the events of my day...

And then I step onto this field with hundreds of people who once had to fight to LIVE and I remember my Grandfather who fought the brave fight, standing tall through his pain without a complaint. I remember his smile and that he made a decision to just LIVE this one Life he was given no matter the outcome or the struggle. We all have our troubles most we can't remember the next year because some how we manage to make it through. So in the words of Jill Scott, "Life doesn't owe us, we owe Life" and our only repayment is to just LIVE!!!

A wonderful day in the "A"

Was it a great day in your part of the world? Did the weather cooperate making you feel good. It was a beautiful day here in the "A" and many of us stood united when we placed our vote that what we needed all summer long was for this day to stay on continuous repeat. Just warm enough to still enjoy the pool, but not the unbearable scorch that makes your hair misbehave and your arm pits feel as if you missed a step after your morning shower. A beautiful day in the "A", when a lunch time stroll wasn't long enough and you had to remind yourself that right now this job you still need so make your way back to your desk, because the sun and perfect breeze does not pay the bills. I hope your part of the world was just as good, because today was a great day to live in the A!!!

I had a topic for today taken form a conversation a girlfriend and I had earlier about the stresses of this life and just being tired, but even with all that is wrong...I decided to take a moment and just reflect on the beauty of today. Those same problems will be there tomorrow, but today was a good day and I thank the weather in the A for changing my energy level and allowing me to just be grateful!!!

If it aint one thing, it's another

It's all an emergency, not one thing more important than the next and all needed to be resolved yesterday. How do you prioritize a list of number one's? What do you do first when they all are relevant and essential to just live? I'm praying that one thing holds up until I resolve another, but if I don't make a plan B, it all will crash and burn. Funny thing is in that half tired, half hysterical laugh I know I have no way to create a back up plan, all I have is faith or as the saying goes a whim and a prayer. Very aware that if one unsteady block tumbles and falls down comes the walls and I just don't know if I will survive under all the rubble.

Second hand

Learning to live within the time you have is by far the hardest task assigned to mankind. Staying present in just this one moment, not dwelling on the last or planning the next. Living right now just for this one. The second hand on the clock steadily going by...literally saying bye with each circular motion. You cannot have it back, so the question becomes how will I make this one better, do I use it or allow it to use me? Is my life now about servitude or slavery. Serving each moment to manifest God's gift in me or slaving over what could not be. Prisoner in my mind to wasted time replaying what I should have done, not setting myself free to just do. Life is a lesson many of us say and learning to appreciating the time right now we keep failing. If I had the answer it wouldn't be tonight's blog...I am open for all suggestions??