Dear God Daughters

This topic has been heavy on my heart for years. Being a God parent is a privilege and a beautiful gift when someone allows you to be a person of influence and safety for their child. I have two God daughters, both of whom I've done a disservice. One I gained as a teenager when I was too young to understand my responsibility and one as I was going through a divorce in my late twenties, both absolute beautiful ladies. My oldest is a young adult with a son of her own and my youngest a young teen. While of course I wish I could have done more for them financially, I know that being a God parent is not a monetary responsibility and they both have parents that give them the best. Being a God parent is an emotional investment. I failed my girls with my time. I became like the absent parent. It took me years to see how selfish I was when I made the decision to move away. I didn't just move; I disconnected, shut down and neglected a responsibility that I promised to God. Brianna and Kimani, I apologize. Time I can never replaced but know in my heart that my short comings were not from a malicious place. Both of you should be the sisters my only child never had. My number should be on speed dial. Your parents trusted me and now years later I must earn your trust because I love you both.