Stand and you will get stuck

When you don't know what to do, you stand. I took the traditional route college right after high school, a major I've never practiced full time; a part time interest, but not a full time passion. So here I stand stuck in this middle earth required to make a living, but not living a life. The bills could care less about what you love. I stand somewhere between melancholy and sad as I offer prayers and pleads on how my gift can help me succeed? Encouraging others to follow their dreams, a hypocrite I am as I conform to societies plan. Working poor and not just financially. Poor in spirit and soul, mentally depleted by a lust for so much more. How long will I stand going no where without a first step. Tricked by numbers, the one that says you are half way done with life and should be planning for retirement, not starting over. Is it really starting over if you've never begun? How can you stand and watch life pass you by, without even a try?