Beat stress to death

It feels like little men marching to a beat, playing the chorus over and over again in my head. What I've learned over the past two days is that stress can kill and no matter how well put together you try to be or for that matter think you are, the body has a way of revealing the real story. Giving it all to God is a daily task and we tend to want to help him with the assignments. He did not give us anymore homework than to trust in him. We can't seem to get an A in just that one category, believing somehow we can show him a better or easier way. Does God do easy? The heavens and earth may have been created within seven days, but the details were not easy and he had to go back to the drawing board a few times destroying the earth, before realizing that it didn't matter how many times we met flood or fire in the end we are just people who err and the greater sacrafice was his son, so that instead we learn to operate in love. Well that is what stress has to be for me. I have to learn to love all of my mistakes. Accepting just who I am, because the facts are 100% true. Yes they can change, but that all has to come from me and my greatest mistake has been how can I make it all different right now instead of accepting that I didn't get here overnight. This has been a long journey and changing course requires that I back track some on the way to my new path. The point of the matter is why kill myself over what I've already done. It's time to let the stress of the past go unless I'm comfortable with it being the death of my tomorrows.