Meant To Be

Reminiscing over an old prom photo I half jokingly said, that he was my 2.5 white fence, happy ever after that I messed up and the follow up response was "if it was meant to be then it would be." I believe this with my whole heart, things are exactly as they should be. We convince ourselves that if we had not made this one decision that the route of our lives would change. No we would have just taken a different road leading to the same place. We can't escape the lesson designed for us to learn, that is what builds our character and develops our muscle. If it were not for every battle wound how would I know that God trusted ME enough to endure my pain so that I could be a vessel for even just one. My pain was my assignment, sharing it with you my test, it helping you reach a breakthrough is my salvation. In hindsight what was meant to be is exactly as it is God wrote the pages of our life, maybe he didn't pick your career but he designed your purpose that if you are blessed enough to fill will order the steps of your career, your relationships, your life.

I was listening to an interview Damon Dash did on the death of Aaliyah who passed 11 years ago today and to paraphrase this quote, "I have to believe that Aaliyah was such a cool individual a good person that she must have passed a certain number of test to die at such a young age and that she's enjoying herself wherever she's at." For me wherever is in heaven with my Father God, so instead of wishing I could re-RIGHT (not write) but instead of me believing that I made the Wrong decisions and that I can somehow make it right, I must accept that different may have lead me somewhere worse in life and that I'm living the life that was meant for me.