Q and A with God

What started out as an extraordinary day somehow took a turn just as quick as a thunderstorm. A morning on track derailed without prior notice; that I had to laugh to keep from crying, but I did need to apologize for screaming. The truck broke down at the gas pump just after I filled her up. On our way to Jhys big wedding shoot, no time to panic my only option was to create a plan b. One cancelled cab, after a rescue ride to a rental car arrives one photographer to her shoot. After the panic was over and crisis diverted taking off one of my hats I head home to dress as I was an invited guest, but I found myself having a Q and A with God not sure why my life is similar to Job. It just seems so rough as if everyday is a test. Some greater than others, but all the same in an effort to avoid asking why. I sincerely ask Lord really so much? Do you really need for me to be so strong? What are you preparing me for with all the trials and tragedies. How large must this testimony be? Am I not deserving of a break today, I think I deserve it. But who am I in the big scheme of things? Lord all I know is that my breakthrough will be greater than my breakdowns even if I don't see the blessings until I'm next to you.