Dating Should be Fun

Okay I called myself jumping into the dating pool yesterday and it started off as fun, I will admit. However somewhere during the evening it shifted and I realized my biggest mistake was reaching for something that was already behind me. I thought it would be less stressful to reconnect with someone from my past, but as the evening progressed I remembered exactly why the past has no future. We wanted to blame our previous lack of connection on timing, but I know that's untrue since time can't separate what's real. We never made it beyond our past due to personality conflicts. My mind keep SCREAMING after the shift...this should be FUN and EASY, but it felt too much like work. I cannot express how relieved I was for the evening to come to an end, but yet and still I needed the refresher course on not looking in the rear view mirror even if I got off that road years ago. It takes a lot for people to change and I've reached this space in my life where I'd rather you go be exactly who you are, as long as we are clear that I don't have to accept that.