Giving God my hand

It's another restless night, I don't even try to sleep anymore; just a little rest I've learned to be grateful for. Here I am at the top of the morning writing tonight's blog, because the question asked was, "what are you stressed for?" I can't say a specific thing, I'm stressed over looking for peace. Isn't that just weird? It's like I'm watching my life from the sidelines. I go through all of the motions. I get up, I put on my face for the day and I function, but I'm just coping. I realize this must be a trust deal. It's like I keep giving God my hand and then I snatched it back. Please Lord I pray just release me from this uncertainty I feel. The anxiety of it all has me climbing walls. And then finally as my eyes decide to close the clock goes off and I have to face yet another day. I pick up Jesus Calling and God answers... I'm quoting out of order but this is what my Lord had to say "It is not so much adverse events that make you anxious as it is your thoughts about those events. Your mind engages in efforts to take control of a situation, to bring about the result you desire." He goes on to answer that my "part is to trust" and close to the end reminds me that I forget that he is in control of my life...because he is Lord!!! I wish somehow I could buy the whole world this life saving, changing little book, all I can say is thank you Sarah Young for using the Lord's word to remind me daily that it all depends on trust.