By myself

There comes that day when you clearly understand if you plan to make it even one more step you must do it all alone. No more hand holding, forget the support groups. Stop holding onto the life raft, you have to let go and finish it all by yourself. I find myself rejecting the calls, responding slower to each text. Socially disconnecting and not because the black hole of depression has swallowed me whole, even though it has tried. No this is an act of strength, testing a new muscle; trying to make sure that I'm strong enough to catch myself from this never ending fall. Even God waits for us to come by ourself. I must compete this journey alone; "on my own... by myself" in my best Michael McDonald voice.