Disturbia

Feeling very Rhiana today so borrowing the songs title to express the state of my mind; unsettled between disturbed and disbelief. Why must hell play out on earth? Were those people destin to die just because they decided to catch the late night movie. God has our life written, does that include others trying to do his job? Disturbed, shaken and chilled to the bone are only a few adjectives to describe my confusion. I ponder on why some are so cruel, why not just take your own life instead of ruining a community. I'm certain your goal was not forever in prison, they would have given you twelve minutes of fame had you ended only your demonic thoughts on the theater floor, sparing all of those bystander's souls. Who would have imagined over the years that the innocent would fall victim to a war within. No where is safe, not daycare or high school, college nor work and now just being a batman fan cost them their life or did they die because no one wanted to address the signs? When we look the other way, the wrong people pay and we are left to pray.

 " It's a thief in the night 

 To come and grab you

 It can creep up inside you

 And consume you

 A disease of the mind 

 It can control you 

I feel like a monster" - Rhiana