Missing Moments

I can count just one time that I missed something major in my daughter's life. I don't think I have forgiven myself yet, but she doesn't remember so at least it's not held against me. Tomorrow is no different something major happens as we begin the first phase of senior pictures. It marks the start of one of the most exciting times of her life and one of my most feared. Each day we will move closer to the day she will walk out the door. Where did the time go and why did it move so fast. I can't hold on forever, but I am not ready to let go. I will hold dear these final mommy- daughter moments, because one day I will have to accept that the shift will come and we will begin our adult to adult relationship. I just pray she never gets to grown to come sit in my lap and trust me with whatever is going on in her life. I pray that I am the person she thinks of first for a midnight call and that she always remembers she can count on me to make her smile. That she knows I will never miss the moments that are most important and I will be there for all the ones in between just because that is a mother's love.