It is what it is...

I'm free falling and I've accepted that I have no control. It's like the domino effect, once one falls it triggers a response that topples the entire set, I'm falling and there is no emergency brake. I can't stop it, so all I can do is brace myself for impact. And once I've hit rock bottom I will evaluate the damage, repair and restore and begin my journey up again. I'm a big girl, I've fallen before and I have enough cushion to soften the blow. The difference this time is the lack of mental panic. I understand when the balance of things are upset that its a growth moment so I graciously accept that I am where I am; because it is what it is. And there's nothing I can do about it for now.