Right Now

I'll never forget this long conversation with Chy and she told me, "nothing changes until you do!" A common sense quote, but one of the hardest actions to complete. Losing weight and getting healthy are not easy task and with ever fail I must admit I become more discouraged. Trying to achieve the right mood balance is hard when you have to pep talk yourself daily into just being okay. Disappointing is still waking up with the "but what ifs" on your mind. And for me if I break down and cry one more time I might fight myself. I try to figure out from second to second how to be keep change in motion. How to be my own SHEro. I can't throw out a lifeline every time I'm feeling blue and I remind myself you've made it this far, the end is always close to the quitting line, so keep going. My Mom suggested I reread my own blog to see how far I've come. I'm an analyzer so I just want it all to be different NOW. My weight, my emotions, my finances, my books, MY LIFE craves completion from my new direction. I need to make a list and focus on just one or two things or I will forever be lost looking at the big picture. If I put piece by piece in the puzzle one day I will look back and it will done.