Death to Debt and Dependence

If only life came with a handbook on how to pick the perfect spouse, be the perfect parent, have the perfect job, white fence and 2.5 kids we could all read our way to a perfect life. This will be an incomplete thought as again I wrote my blog and went to save and for the second time this week all of my work was erased...but I have lived a life dead to debt and dependency and I am done. When you live dead to debt you are on life support watching the machines go up and down without a plug to pull praying that one day they just stop. It's cohort dependency offers temporary relief, but it just places the power to kill your life in the  hands of others. Unfortunately for me I have viewed myself as less than an adult stuck between these two suicides, mostly out of shame and guilt. I don't know many people with a conscious that sleep well at night when they are dying a slow death because of the two D's. While I gladly write their obituary and plan their funeral, I grieve no more my role as an adult. I accept that I was adult enough to make poor decisions that may have required help in which I am responsible for, but I will no longer dumb myself down in my role as an adult. As a human I have made plenty of mistake and as I have grown through the years I have a trillion lessons that I have learned, but I will not be measured by what another considers success and I will not be mislabeled based on their beliefs. I respect that everyone has an opinion, but I kindly ask that you keep it to yourself if it's about me. Who says that how you live your life is best for me?