Suffocating

You can miss someone so much that you build up this hope that they will miss you just as much. To feel deflated when you accept that they don't. Tonight I shared in my daughter's final project at the art school and I was so full, excited anticipating all the wonderful things she experienced. Her not so much, she spoon fed me the details. I'm sure there are more to come, but what I learned is I can't suffocate her. I have to let go and even though I feel that time is quickly running out and I have so much more I need to teach her, God says trust that you've given enough for her to lean a little less on you as she learns to walk into the next phase of her life. Isn't it amazing how life can be a bunch of circles as we repeat letting go... starting with their first step and again the first day of school, the transition to middle school, then high school goes so fast and one day marriage. For this very reason we are instructed to let go and let God, who else can I trust with my most valuable treasure, but the one who gifted her to me to begin with. I love my child, but I must let her breathe.