I am a poster child of Domestic Violence and while I survived the physical abuse, I've spent years in mental captivity because the wounds were covered up nicely, but the healing never took place. I've lived twenty years with a lot of dirty bandages; which caused the infestation that created the story of my life. Living in silence played a major part of why I continued to allow the same type of people in my life. Not that they were all physical, but they were all abusers. Pain was my normal and since I was rotting from the inside out due to the unhealed wounds, I didn't have an image of what a healthy relationship looked like. I did not know I was worthy of kindness, real love or respect. All I saw when I looked in the mirror was a broken person. I just began my journey to finding my self worth January 4, 2012 when I broke my silence with this blog and still I didn't start therapy until June. I'm taking baby steps and somedays I still find myself crawling, but the most important thing is I began. And I encourage any person living in that silent hell to seek help, because you really are not living if you afraid.
The National Domestic Violence Awareness website and hotline number are below:
http://www.nrcdv.org/dvam/
1-800-799-7233
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