Organizing my blog

I've been walking around all day with words in my head, topic after topic trying to organize what to say, so I've decided to talk about just that. Rarely do I share something prepared, normally my topics are emotion driven or related to an experience for the day or something I'm just learning the lesson for even if the event has passed. Some of it is me just being silly for the day or lazy, but my goals are to reach one, teach one by sharing my life with transparency. Topics I feel strongly about are following your dreams, domestic violence, the elderly and poor, weight loss and gracefully moving past a broken heart and that's not just with men, it could be a best friend, a family member or your child(ren). We experience that pain on many different levels, a break up, a break down, abandonment or death. My purpose is to grow daily, my story is not different from many others. I've been beat, raped, cheated on and left. On the flip side I've abused with my words and left some myself. I've tried marriage twice and I'm scared as hell of watching it fail again, because I begin to question what aren't I doing right. I don't find anything cute about saying I've been divorced twice. I guess that's why I've held on to something dead for so long, but guess what that rotten smell begins to make you sick and you find yourself just revisiting the same ole' hurt. I've tried to say ok I'll organize my blog in days. Sunday spiritual, but I go to Friday service, Fat Tuesday why not since they gave Fat it's on day, how about relationship Wednesday or Elderly Thursday? I could take questions or suggestions but honestly to be an authentic me. I find that some event, conversation, song, email or even argument is how my topics begin. Just by living life, I begin to write.