Silence my next option...

Tired of waking up screaming, thinking of putting my pecial down until I learn to use the eraser. Tired of this all consuming hurt, feels like I'm stuck on replay with no stop or fast forward button. Wanted to give some much more with my topics, but paralyzed by my self hurt. Cheating my readers and my dream, I apologize for being so blue. I wanted to be that light of hope during dark times, but I'm broken and fragile I can't pick up that S to demonstrate success in spite of. I may need to stop and regroup because if I can't change the topic silence is my next option.