Sleep

Have you ever been so mentally tired that your body just wanted to shut down. I will never forget joining this women's group and the leader would have us talk about whatever our event was and the first question would be so how did that make you feel physically. Did the angry reaction give you a headache, or did the sorrow make your stomach ache. How about tension in your back or neck. For every emotion there is a physical reaction and for every trigger there is something deeper behind it. Using me as the example. I'm going through a heartbreak, but we all know physically that my heart is not literally breaking, however the pain that I'm feeling is not about a bad relationship ending. It is about being rejected and abandoned. It is about my broken dreams of forever after, my fear of starting over or even messing up again. It's about convincing myself of my self worth. So physically with all of that mentally running through my head my current response is fatigue. I have the best booster club, love and support, but at the end of the night its just me. Do you know that it takes energy just to stay in the tired state, because you have to be that tired to be done and then after you've figure out the best way to sort the rest of the mess, you're exhausted. I see why people often leave with nothing because they'd rather just have peace of mind. Well if you can't get peace at least you can get sleep. Good night followers.